OH hello friend.

I went to the doctor because I felt a strong pop in my jaw last week and its been hurting ever since. Turns out I sprained the joint there and theres nothing I can do but take it easy on my jaw and let it heal for the next 6 weeks.

Then my doctor pulls out this survey about depression, moods and anxiety. She explained that my dad came in and told her that I should take this test and she agreed. 

Literally walked in to get something for my jaw and came out with CBT online, medication and a therapist appointment. 

I just feel so blindsided by the whole thing and my mom doesnt get why I was upset and basically said “you’re proving why you need this medication.”

Its a cliche to say but they just dont get it.

They have said that they would date me. They have said that I am wife material. I’m not the kind of girl you want to fuck around with and then throw away, I’m a keeper, they say. They say that I am so chill and funny and yes that my boobs don’t hurt the situation either :P

They say all the nice things and yet I want you, the one I have to chase, the one that doesn’t want me at all.

When I look at my body I think of you now. Would you like? Would you see the changes? Most of all could you resist it?